While out there, on the third night of the quester’s solos (quester's go out for three days on their own), I was jumped by an entity while falling asleep. My guides had told me to sleep in the Medicine Wheel that night, but I didn't listen. The malevolent being used my own voice to give it permission to enter, right as I was in that in-between state; or maybe it mimicked my voice. All I know is that suddenly I heard my own voice say: I want to be possessed. This is not my will at all, so how could I be saying it?
But it was permission.
In an instant my body was violently entered by this being. I was in a state of paralysis, but my astral body was able to pray. I called on Yeshua and Magdalene. My astral body voice praying sounded like the most evil demon voice ... So strange!! But within one second, the entity was out. Top of my head tingling, whole body buzzing. At that point, I felt two things: terrified and incredibly powerful. I realized that it is impossible for the negative beings to stay in my body and that I never have to go through this experience again!! I got dressed (probably 2am), and lugged my bedding out into the Medicine Wheel in the middle of the meadow where base camp was. I was there until sunrise, praying, staring at the cosmos and feeling vast in myself, battling with my hyper-vigilant mind that was afraid to try to sleep, and finally, after calling in Kali, I slept.
Kali, the Indian goddess who came out of Durga to fight a demon that none of the other gods could defeat. And she devoured and destroyed it.
I’ve realized a huge lesson from this attack. That it’s time to really own my power – the power I can hold – and when I don’t own it, it’s like I’m choosing to be vulnerable to attack. So – right now – I own, I am, I can feel my power. It’s incredibly strong. And with it comes the responsibility to wield in the service of love and The One.
I’ve realized a huge lesson from this attack. That it’s time to really own my power – the power I can hold – and when I don’t own it, it’s like I’m choosing to be vulnerable to attack. So – right now – I own, I am, I can feel my power. It’s incredibly strong. And with it comes the responsibility to wield in the service of love and The One.
This last year has been a so surreal- yet this has been my reality all my life – walking between the worlds...
I have been fighting off possession attacks since I was a child. And now, no more.
It's taken me 37 years to completely say yes to my power. And it must be a 100% yes, because that is the purest protection from any other being finding a crevice to sneak in.
My nights have been peaceful since that last attack.
I have been waking in the night, smiling and with a soft, open heart.
I can feel the benevolent entities who work with Medium Joao (John of God) around me, working through me on my clients, healing me as I sleep. I've never felt such present and immediate response to my prayers for healing. It's amazing!!
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My brother has been preparing for the trip. He's excited. The malevolent being in him is very angry about the Brazil trip. It's acting out way more. Making Anthony move, more. It seems to recognize me, and when I'm around it makes purposeful engagement with me - either through waving, or other strange actions.
The other day, when I was at my Grandparent's house visiting my brother, he yelled out "Fuck You!" completely out of the blue. I knew it was the entity. Everyone in the house just went about their business and ignored it. It struck me how incredibly lucky Anthony is to have a family who totally accepts his crisis for what it truly is. The love and support is so profound. This is one reason I have faith that this crisis is going to have a positive outcome.
Grandma said, "It's threatened or it wouldn't be acting this way." My Grandma is 88. She's a devout Episcopalian. She talked to her priest about Anthony's possession and sent Anthony to speak with him. She's so solid. Totally unshaken by this evil presence in her home. She just keeps showering Anthony with her love.
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I've had many more dreams of being in groups of people and I'm laying my hands on them, channelling healing light.
Gratitude.
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Prayers that my Passport comes in the mail on Tuesday, so I can get to the Consulate for my visa by Wednesday!!
It's happening. It's happened. Ashe.
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