Maria's Operation/ Photos

My operation was an experience like none other. In the morning I went in first with many, many others receiving psychic surgery. We filed into the Surgery Room and sat in wooden pews. We were told to close our eyes and put our right hand on the place afflicted, and if we didn't have a bodily area, to put the right hand over the heart. I placed my hand on the back of my head over the occipital nerves. Suddenly we were told to open our eyes and prepare to exit after all those in wheelchairs were rolled out. Maybe 5 minutes!

Once outside a guide told us all the post-op requirements. I was given a prescription for herbs as part of my healing process. The herbs prescribed for everyone is Passiflora (passion flower), in capsules. They are touched by the Entities and programmed to help heal the specific affliction of each person. So even though they're all Passiflora, if I took Anthony's herbs I would have a very different reaction than if I took mine.

I took a taxi back to Irmao Sol with others from the pousada who had also had operations. I took one of my capsules and lay down in my white clothes for my 24 hour of post-op adjustments by the Entities. The guide said we should sleep or pretend to sleep - basically always be lying down with our eyes closed, unless we're eating (Anthony brought me all my meals), or using the bathroom. Wow! What a journey! Staying in bed with eyes closed for so long. So many prayers, thoughts, daydreams, dozing off and having visions, dreaming... and on and on. Like the solo time at Vision Quest - this 24 hours encapsulated my whole lifetime so far.

At one point I was in a deep relaxed space and a brilliant white light lit up at the top of my forehead. I knew it was the Entities and I gave thanks. The light returned. Then I saw, with my
eyes still closed, two hands descend down to place fingers on either side of my jaw. The fingers tapped my jaw gently three times. I felt it and heard it! It brought me out of my semi-sleep and into full consciousness. Again, I gave thanks, smiled and felt a joy blossom in my heart.
"This is real!"

Much more happened in that sleeping time that I won't explain. I got out of bed at 11am the next day and joined others for lunch. Sacred soup had been brought from the Casa, and all of those recovering from operations ate soup. I was very sensitive in my lower belly all morning. I had had constant pinching around my navel and ovaries throughout my time in bed. I really felt like I'd just gotten home from surgery! My head is a different situation all together. It was still twitching, yet I had way more understanding about my relationship to it. The twitching is connected to my victim consciousness and realizing the power of choosing to not live in this consciousness anymore. I was also shown that my afflictions are connected to deep heartbreak and loss from many, many past lives where I was severed from my Beloved violently and against our wills. I came to a decision that I must come to a completion around this karmic cycle once and for all. I've been praying on how to do this.

Friday afternoon I returned to the Casa and went into the Medium's current room to hold the current for others and receive more help myself. Three hours in a wooden pew, even though I'd brought a pillow, was very physically uncomfortable for me. My head felt like it was in a vice, the pressure was so intense. Then I had moments of pure relief and grace! I realized that anxiety thoughts made my head-twitching worse. Anxiety thoughts, of course, were from my victim consciousness- worries about Anthony, hoping my prayers are being heard, doubts... etc. Whenever I found myself in these places I would imagine taking this part of me under my wing and saying, "Welcome. Sit with me here." Then I'd keep meditating. I felt the Entities a couple of times in my head, working with my cervical spine and jaw.

At the end of the afternoon session, I stood up and felt so dizzy, like I'd been drugged. My head was swimming. It took a good hour for my balance and clarity to return. Believe it or not, to me this was a sign to continue sitting in current as much as possible.

In the current is where the work is done. This is where I'm asked to own and accept all of me with compassion. This is the practice. The Entities are with me all the time, working on me, loving me, and I feel encouraged.

I had a dream that I was telling someone I was returning to Abadiania on January 22, 2011. I then drew lines through four weeks in a row on a calendar I was holding. I believe this is Spirit showing me the next step to my treatment. Many people have continued to return to the Casa year after year, and every year they are healthier and happier in all areas of their lives. If this is the commitment I must make for full healing, I joyfully make it! This place is so powerful. Everyone is here to awaken, to heal, to be whole again. Connections made here are deep and genuine. I feel transformed just from talking to the other guests at our pousada about their experiences with the Entities.

Today is Saturday. Anthony and I went to the Casa to meditate. I had another crystal bed treatment. I can't explain how amazing this treatment is! In 20 minutes I went from feeling a bit irritable and dense from really working my issues, to feeling my heart open, softness in my being, relaxed in my body, and clear energetically.

I found out today that "crystal baths", the actual contraptions that are rigged up over massage tables, are sold at the Casa for $3000 ( I think that's dollars, not Brazilian reals.) I would love to find a group of people willing to raise some money together to buy one of these for our Sonoma County community.

Today I put photos of my Grandparent's in the prayer triangle. Anthony had taken the pictures but didn't want to place them because his possessing entity might talk through his prayers and taint them. The photo just above to the right is their pictures inside the triangle with a picture of John of God to the left of the triangle. Friday I placed a photo of Ella! Yay!

Where I stand now:
I am healing. I am opening. I am committed. I've never been happier in my life! I keep pinching myself - I'm really here! What an opportunity! I'm so glad Anthony has the opportunity to remain longer. I have complete faith he will be healed. I know I will be.

Blessings to all,
Maria