Anthony: The Current Room

Yesterday I waited in line to see John of God. A translator helped me give my request to him. After I sat in the entities' current room, I was pulled aside for a talk by the translator who helped me, then I picked up my prescription for herbs. The translator then told me that the incorporated entity recommended a special crystal for me. Even if I did not purchase the crystal, the translator said the entity incorporated in John of God was willing to help me. I felt good about my first experience and began taking my herbs that day.

Today I went to the mediums' current room and the entity that is possessing me started acting out. It swore out loud, it punched my leg hard a few times, and slapped my face. A staff person asked me to behave myself, thinking that I was a medium helping others. Evidently, some mediums act out whatever they are picking up on. The staff person said that I was able to control it. When I said that I couldn't control the actions, she said that I would learn to control the outbursts.

I realized that the swearing and hitting might continue and left to talk to a translator. I spoke to the man who gave us our orientation on Tuesday night. He understands the situation better now. I told him I started hearing voices about a year ago, then went into trances induced by the voices, until I felt possessed, like I was reluctantly hosting another consciousness inside me. When I got back to my room, the entity attached to me bit my lip hard, making me bleed.

I will return to the Casa today for the 2pm line to see John of God. First I will see the man who gave us our orientation. He said that he would help me in approaching the incorporated entity again to request a course of action. I'll show the translator the letter from my doctor relaying that the entity inside me has a mind of its own and I cannot control all of its actions. (They often catch me by surprise.)

I don't think I will be able to sit in the mediums' current room for my healing process if the malicious entity that is attached to me keeps swearing out loud and hitting me. Since sitting in the current room is a big part of the healing process here at the Casa, I'm hopeful that John of God will be able to pass on to me another option.

I walk around feeling able to relate to others freely, but a little bit numb around the healing process. It feels like the malicious entity has wrapped itself around me so many times that I don't have a clear connection to my feelings about the possession. When I had my car accident and whiplash injury in December 1998, it took me almost a year before I realized I needed to get another lawyer to handle my settlement for medical treatment, that my condition was serious. I was in a daze. I often feel like that when the malicious entity attached to me chooses to make itself felt. My memory suffers most. So perhaps I don't really remember how it makes me feel.